The former Leeds United man only came out of a coma two weeks ago…
In an exclusive interview with The Sun, Clarke Carlisle has revealed that he jumped in front of the lorry that hit him in an attempt to commit suicide.
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The 35-year-old was hit by the vehicle on 22 December last year, and has been recovering in hospital since. He is expected to make a full recovery from his injuries, despite only coming out of a coma almost a month later on 20 January.
Carlisle has frequently been candid on his struggles with depression throughout his career.
“I had to die. This wasn’t escaping or running away. This was the perfect answer,” Carlisle said.
“It made everyone happy and it ticked every box.”
“I walked out of that police station having made the decision that I had to die.
“I sat in that cell and thought, ‘There is no way that I can let my children have a criminal father.’
“I thought: ‘All you do is inflict pain. All you do is cause problems.
“Your wife and family who love you don’t deserve that.”
However, once he has recovered, the former QPR and Burnley player will have to go to court, as he had received a drink-driving charge just days before the incident.
Carlisle played for the likes of Burnley, QPR and Leeds United during a strong career in the lower leagues , and became heavily involved with the PFA following his retirement in 2013. He also worked as a pundit for the BBC, but is currently out of work – and will no doubt be heavily focussed on recovering from his illness.
SUN EXCLUSIVE: I leapt in front of lorry hoping to die #tomorrowspaperstoday #BBCPapers pic.twitter.com/oURehYGfbI
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